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Bryony thinks it started with her father, because he was the one who stupidly got himself killed on that motorbike all those years ago.  Her mother found immutable courage in the face of their loss, but Bryony just went numb. Relatives sought to offer condolences and food, but the teenage Bryony pushed them away with silence and lack of eye contact.  Why get attached?  That was her new philosophy.  Everyone was going to leave you in the end.

But she did get attached.  How can anyone avoid it?  One evening it struck her in a flash that she had grown dependent on her mother for the strength she could not summon up within herself since that fatal accident.  It was a dependence that was primordial, an expansion on every infant’s worst fear: that one day when Mother walks away, she really won’t be coming back.

Then followed the anxious projections into the future – years of worrying, always the worrying; each year her mother grew older, Bryony would feel time passing, creeping closer to the day when she would inevitably have to say goodbye to her – and Bryony would panic. Read More→

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Had he wanted to romanticise, or to dramatise, he would have decided that the dreams woke him, but he knew it to be untrue.  He woke to the hot, pervasive sun, to the taste of gravel and its numbed imprint upon his face; to the acrid smell of stale urine, and the sound of the passing crowds.  For a moment he lay, though unaware that he lay on the ground, his slow mind stuck in the warmed cushion of sleep.  He tasted blood and instinct took over, hand moving to his face.  A sneeze peppered his fingers with scarlet globules, and he almost began to remember.

The boy – with the age but none of the hard edges of a man – gradually wrenched himself into a sitting position, rested against a skip and looked around.  A dirty alleyway was the stage for this, his latest escapade, its bricks fluffy even in the pained heat of mid July.  He pulled his jacket tight around him and lifted the hood onto his head, shivering quite fervently in spite of the uncomfortable warmth around him.  The sweat stung his eyes and his wounded body.  He spat more blood, wiping with his sleeve a face to which he still could not assign a name.  The boy searched his pockets, finding a half-smoked packet of cigarettes, a handful of loose change, but no wallet.  No identification of any kind.  Cold panic squeezed his throat.  He took a cigarette from the pack and a red disposable lighter, the first drag rushing straight to his brain.  Dizzied, he searched for an answer. Read More→

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You live for this, your daily run.  You find yourself thinking about it all the time.  You have to wonder if it isn’t just another obsession, but even if it is, it’s a good one.  You don’t want to give it up.  Not because you’re a health fanatic, though you certainly are grateful for the energy and youthfulness you feel from doing it.  No, it’s because sometimes, if you’re fast enough, you can outrun them.

You drink strong coffee to connect the synapses in your brain faster.  You’ve been told it’s bad for you, but you don’t care.  You’ve been there when the sluggishness was coupled with thoughts that surge like breakers, sudden and without warning.  You can drown in it.  Better to be alert and in control, even if it’s the false control of a strong cup of French roast.

You look out the kitchen window on a day that’s filtered through a green summer haze.  It will be hot, so you decide to run early. Read More→

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It was the fourth time I’d read the magazine and it had only come out the previous month.  I could almost close my eyes and tell each story to myself word for word.  I knew every line and shadow in the photos and every mistake in the text.  I knew every fingerprint on the page.

The magazine in question was in the waiting room at the hospital.

I knew all the staff at Stanton Territorial Hospital – not by name, but by face – and when I was there I always tried to keep my head down in a book, pamphlet or magazine so they wouldn’t notice me.  I spent way too much time there and I knew it.  And they knew it.  And I knew they knew.

I didn’t want the nurses to think I was some silly hypochondriac, jabbering on endlessly about my ailments. Read More→

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As featured in OCD-UK’s members magazine:

Aaron’s face lights up in a way she’s not sure she has ever seen in him before. He leans in toward her as if about to divulge a great secret, his face almost too close to her for her liking. ‘I’m going to the Compulsion Factory today,’ he whispers, and even Marie is impressed.

‘Really?’ her eyes dilate feverishly like a child given the key to a forbidden room. ‘I’ve been wondering about that place ever since it opened, but I haven’t dared try it yet.’

‘Why not?’ ‘I’m not sure. I guess I’m a little scared of it. What if it’s just…too real….’

‘Well…but isn’t that the point?’

Marie is forced to laugh at herself. ‘I guess you’re right. So…what are you doing, there?’

Oh, it’s a good one this time–‘

‘Wait! You mean you’ve done it before? You already know how it works?’ Read More→

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